There are moments in life when we suddenly catch up with ourselves.
That happened to me this week.
I realised how easily—almost without noticing—we slip into living life on autopilot.
Recently, I’ve been experiencing a lot of change. Not even bad change. Just… change.
The kind that arrives one wave after another.
Somewhere in the middle of it all, I found myself simplifying life into a survival checklist:
Wake up
Eat
Get ready for the day
Survive the day
Take care of responsibilities
Go home and take care of more responsibilities
Notice you’re exhausted
Go to bed
Recharge
And then repeat it all again tomorrow.
At first, this seemed like a practical way to navigate change.
Focus on what needs to be done.
Keep moving forward.
But after a while, something felt missing.
Life started to feel… bland.
Every day felt like the same experience repeated again and again.
No flavor.
So I sat with that feeling for a while.
And I asked myself a simple question:
What is the opportunity here?
For me.
For you.
For all of us.
Remembering the Creator
One belief has always guided me:
We are the creators of our own reality.
When I remembered this, I compared it with the way I had been living recently—on autopilot.
And I realised something uncomfortable.
I had stepped away from my role as the Creator.
Not because life forced me to.
But because I chose to.
Now here’s the interesting part:
Even living on autopilot is still a choice.
And choice is perhaps the greatest gift we have as creators of our own experience.
The realisation was that I had been using my ability to choose in a very passive way.
It felt like standing at a gelato stand filled with the most incredible flavours imaginable…
and choosing vanilla every single time.
Now, don’t get me wrong.
Vanilla is great.
Sometimes vanilla is exactly what you want.
But when you’ve been having vanilla for a long time, something inside you eventually whispers:
Maybe it’s time to try a different flavour.
What I felt emerging was a desire to create a new experience of myself.
Not by controlling change.
Not by resisting change.
But by partnering with change.
Creation vs ReaCtion
While reflecting on this, two words came into my awareness:
Creation
and
ReaCtion
I noticed something interesting about the letter C in both words.
For me, the C became a reminder of the Creator—you and me.
When you look at the word Creation, the C stands on the outside.
When I sat with that image, it felt symbolic.
The Creator stands outside the rest of the world, observing it.
This feels like living from within ourselves.
When we are deeply connected to our internal world—our awareness, our truth, our sense of self—the world around us still exists, but it doesn’t define us.
We are in the world, but our experience comes from within.
Our choices are guided by our own inner awareness rather than the noise of the collective world around us.
Then there is the word reaCtion.
Here, the C sits in the middle of the word.
Now the Creator is surrounded by the rest of the letters—almost like being surrounded by the external world.
When we live here, our focus shifts outward.
Our identity begins by referencing the world around us:
opinions
expectations
comparisons
possibilities.
The challenge with this space is that the world contains an overwhelming number of truths.
Different perspectives.
Different beliefs.
Different directions.
Standing at the gelato stand suddenly becomes complicated.
What if we choose the wrong flavour?
What if there’s a better one we missed?
What if we regret the choice?
When faced with this overload of options, we often slip into reaction mode.
Instead of living life consciously, we begin reacting to it.
The Simplicity of Feeling
Then a realisation emerged that changed everything for me.
As creators of our own experience, we are not responsible for choosing the perfect experience.
Our responsibility is much simpler than that.
Our responsibility is to choose—and then fully experience ourselves within that choice.
Not focusing on what we are experiencing.
But focusing on who we are within the experience.
Not the flavour of the ice cream.
But how it feels when we taste it.
Suddenly, everything became simpler.
Instead of trying to manage all the possible outcomes of a choice, I only had one thing to pay attention to:
How does this choice make me feel?
And when we focus on feeling, something beautiful happens.
All the other elements naturally become available.
The taste.
The sensation.
The awareness.
The presence.
Because feeling connects us to every part of ourselves:
Mentally
Emotionally
Physically
Spiritually
Energetically.
The driver was never the flavour.
The driver was always the experience of Self.
Life Is Meant to Be Lived
When we allow ourselves to truly feel our experiences, we reconnect with the essence of Creation.
And ultimately, with the essence of the Creator within us.
My wish for you is simple:
Allow yourself to feel your way through life.
Life is not something we came here merely to survive.
We came here to live.
To participate fully.
To explore the endless flavours available to us.
And to embrace the beautiful freedom of choice that allows us to experience ourselves in new ways.
Because in the end, the real experience was never the ice cream.
It was always you.
In love and awareness
Babetza